When Georgie thought back on it, he realised that he was
always more than a single person. Some of the reading-up he did on
it, secretly, while in the hospital – no madhouse – explained a
bit about the disorder. Another disorder he mused to himself, the
first time he saw the disease explained as a disorder of the mind,
usually caused by childhood trauma. And he had lots of that while he
was growing up with cloying Mumsie, The Duchess, and of course The
Major. It wasn't sexual, just abuse that destroyed his being, self
belief, and any sense of worth he had. That was when Timmy came to
his rescue. He was stronger and able to stand up to the grown ups:
not outwardly though, secretly, hidden, out of the light he used say.
A cat missing, presumed to have strayed, but dead, terribly cut up,
and secreted where a maid might find it eventually when the stench
became overpowering in the house. Dogs, particularly one of major's
beagles, poisoned: found in the morning legs up, lying on its back,
the bloated belly swollen with gas.
Then, when Georgie was not so distressed with the family
any more, Timmy would go away for a time. It was Timmy who was the
killer, first of animals, and then the girls. Georgie tried to stop
him, saying.....No Timmy, No Timmy. Not more killing
enough girls have
been killed. In the end it was Georgie who buried them in the grove.
He reasoned if the bodies were found he would get the blame, not
Timmy.
Even now when he thought of it he whimpered. “ ….No,
Timmy, No. I'll be the blame. Not you...” Then after Grammy died,
she often came back and chastised both of them. After the police
came, Grammy stayed and Timmy was banished. He stayed away for years,
but – he was back now, and then, still a killer: this time in
waiting. How long could Georgie make him wait?
The last time when Duchess said the boy was responsible
for making the mess, letting the family down, and finally indicated
as best she would allow herself to, that the boy was responsible.
Everyone thought she meant Georgie killed the girls, but that was not
true, what she was trying to say, and her pride in the family would
not let her say it: Timmy was the killer, the culprit, the brigand,
the vagabond.
Maybe now this time The General would rein Timmy in and
prevent further carnage: maybe.
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